To my love.

I wished for nothing more than to be with you. To share my life with you, to hold you close, to love you.
I wished for nothing more than to be with you to have you to give my self to you.I wanted my smiles to be for you
I wanted my heart to be with you. And I wanted to be in your thoughts like you was in mine.I never got what I wanted
I waited to long to tell you.I was in a relashionship that I was not happy in.I was seeing somone that done nothing but
hurt me.And then I found you.But I did not speak up in time and now you are gone.You found another you have a family now.
And i am not a part of it. I left, I went away to see family ( I told my self that when I got back I would tell you how I
feel for you) But when I got back it was to late.All I could was come to your wedding and wish you and your new
wife luck.God how hard it was for me to sit there and see you say the vows that would bind you to another,When I
wanted it to be there sayinig them to you and hearing them come from your lips.But all I could do was sit there and
watch my dreams fade away with each word that was said.A few years pass and you show up at my house. You tell me that youc liked me that it was me you wanted.My heart jumps with joy.But you are still married you say your not happy that
yall are going to get a divorce, when the kids get older.You tryed to sleep with me,and even though I wanted you
I stop you.cause I didnt want you if I couldnt have all of you.You could not see that.That is the day my heart got broken.
When you told me that next time we meet we are just friends I new then that you was just playing with me..And when you
walked out that door you took my heart with you. The only thing left for me to do was cry my tears,pick my self up and try to move on. But yet I was blind by what i didnt want to see wich was you was using me...I still tryd to get you,with my letters
I pourd my feelings out to you like i never done for any one I layd my heart out for you to see.And all you did was step on it..
I trusted you with my thoughts and my feelings.And you broke it all you broke me like no one els could. And now it has been
another year I have not seen you or heard from you.But yet you still creep back ni to my thoughts every once in a while
no matter how hard I try to forget you (to forget something I never had) I cant seem to get you out of my mine for to long.
If you came to me today and told me you was single and you wanted me.I probley would not be with you.For a few reason one is how you done me befor,you tricked me in to beliving you wanted me,but I see that now.And another reason i wouldnttake you is cause.even though I think of you even though you have a little pice of my heart.I do not love you no more. You brokethat trust and that special love when you broke me.You may have a pice of my heart. But I now hold the rest and I have it locked away, I locked so it would not be walked on again by you or anyone els. I may one day find somone worth giving it to. But you my dear, You do not deserve my heart, You will have my friendship alwasy but never will you see my heart again.I wish you the best of luck in finding what you want in life,I wish you the best of luck with your wife and kids,I wish the both of you happyness,And i wish long happy lifes for your kids.Cause even though after sharing my feeling for you after telling you how i feel, even though you do not feel the same for me.I am proud of my self for standing up and telling somone..Im proud of my self for trying to get something I wanted, I may not have got it I may have got nothing but pain from it at the time.But now i see that pain is not all I got.I learnd something, I learnd that life is to short to let things slip by some times you have to take a chance it may not alywas turn out how you want it But at least later you can say you tryd...I wont wonder what might have been if I would have tryed,cause I did try and I seen how it would have been... And now I can move on. Now I can look forward to finding somone els to love somone that will love me back.Someone that deserves my love.. Im going now. I just wrote this letter to get some things off my chest. to let you know that i did love you.and to let you know that Im happy I did try. And to wish you luck with your life.Take care my friend.Take care of your family, Maybe i will see you around some time..

always and forever